As I sit here in my best friend's Texas home, her one year-old son (Roman) is playing in the living room and his curiosity and joy is a gift to behold!
Earlier this week, we shared on our Instagram about insecurities and the verses from Psalms attached to that post are holding onto my heart as I sit here and watch this sweet boy just being a baby.
"For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be." Psalm 139:13-16
...All the days ordained for me were written in your book before ONE of them came to be (emphasis me).
Wow, all the days ordained for me? That seems too good...and before one of them came to be?
It's a humbling thought as I sit in my own emotions, plans and dreams. Just take a moment and think how much you think about your future. For me, my shoot from the hip answer would be "not all the time" but in reality, worrying about the future takes up a lot more time than I'm willing to admit. I'm not truly living in a way that reflects this verse.
Well what about the bills? And the insurance deductibles? What about our business? The list goes on.
But when I look at little Roman, I believe full and well that his days are ordained, so why is it difficult for me to believe that about my own days? I really think it's because I can see his little life from the outside. I have so much love in my heart for this sweet babe that I know, even on the hard days in his life to come, that they were all ordained before one of them came to be.
When my thoughts, fears and emotions run rampant I lose the perspective and knowledge that I'm God's child. Can you relate?
Dear sisters and brothers, being human can take its toll and rob us of our peace in knowing we are God's children. Imagine for a moment a life where you don't worry about all the days to come. Okay, now close your eyes and take five deep breaths and truly picture it...
Feel better? I do. God knew us before we were even formed in the hidden places. He knows what we need, our desires and dreams, and has a plan for our lives. Think about the way you can experience peace in the company of someone who knows and cherishes you...now think about how much more God knows you and the peace you can feel in knowing you're ALL HIS, for all the days.
It won't be perfect, for we are not perfect...but I do believe that if we pause and get quiet we will feel the reassurance and peace of being God's children as we lean into Him today.